Published by Aparna on 26 Feb 2012 at 10:14 pm
Call it resolution or whatever, I am now making a serious attempt at resuming blogging. Some of the things that I am going to write right now are going to be one of those cryptic posts along the lines of what I used to write earlier and will definitely not make any sense to you. But I am posting it here nevertheless, simply because I want to.
Sometime last year, as I went through some not-so-happy phases, when some things didn’t work out the way I wanted to, the way I dreamt it would, there were two things which gave me immense relief, which gave me solace - Music and Writing.
It was the soul-stirring Bhageshri raagam in the female version of Aaromale and later ‘Dichotomy of Fame’ (Rahman’s songs, of course!) in which I found the much-needed comfort. There were days when I didn’t feel like listening to anything else.
I can’t help thinking time and again how there would have been one big void in my life if music had not been there. There was a time when I was not feeling well and my parents were also out of station at that time. I was almost feeling like being down in the dumps. My parents and sister kept asking me to do the only one thing which they were sure would cheer me up, which was to listen to music!
If music helped, so did writing - the pouring out of feelings into words. There were instances when I wrote all that I felt and at the end of it felt better.
I am a person who has a very low patience level. Yet I surprised myself with the patience I exhibited last year. But when there came a time when my patience was tested to the maximum, all that mattered till then suddenly seemed to become meaningless. I was tempted to vent out a whole gamut of feelings here just to preserve my sanity, but something stopped me. I just imagined some of the lines that I would write here and the relief I felt after the ‘virtual pouring out of feelings’ was immense! Though I can’t say anything else, all I would like to say right now is that my blog will definitely continue to be a saviour in my life. And I am now back to blogging!
I know that there are still my long time readers who read what I write here and I am thankful to you all for that.